Oh Baby. Growing #3!
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Gal Meets Glam Makenna Floral Maxi, Target Torri Two Brand Leopard Sandals, Stella & Dot Shai Bracelet
We are so excited to add another wonderful little person to our family!
This first trimester has been my most challenging, ever. Iβm a few days shy of 14 weeks and really hoping and believing that I will start feeling better, like really soon! My days are still characterized by the nausea, the exhaustion and just the PREGNANCY BRAIN. It has all been so much worse this timeβ¦ itβs really true when people tell you that every pregnancy is different. This one has been so challenging and it doesnβt compare to my other pregnancies, so Iβve almost had to forget my other experiences and not compare this one to those. Which has been hard! I canβt tell you how many times over the past few months Iβve said things like, βI should be able to do this!β Because in the past, I could.
I didnβt really mean to take a break from blogging and Instagram, but my energy levels absolutely tanked and itβs been really quiet around here - so thatβs why! Just keeping myself and my boys going has been where ALL my energy has gone. Because Stevie is gone a lot during the weekdays for work, Iβve crashed on the weekends and tried to soak up all the sleep. Can you tell itβs been a really special time?!
How I found out //
I always seem to know before I actually know. I woke up one morning feeling so off, so exhausted and grossed out by brushing my own teeth (such a telltale sign.) I decided to take a test and there it was - pregnant! I took 3 more tests to confirm. I kept coming back to look at them throughout the day. I couldnβt believe it! And yet, I could. I was elated. I still am!
How I told Stevie //
He was out of town when I found out, so I waited an entire day and night to actually tell him. I wanted it to be in person, although it was the LONGEST 24 hours of keeping this secret with just myself. It was kind of fun though. I actually wrapped up the 4 tests I had taken and put them in an iPhone box (the phone company had recently sent me a new phone so it was just lying around.) When he came home, I pointed to the box on the counter and said, βItβs the weirdest thing - look at what the phone company sent me. β He opened the box and just stared. Then he goes, βTHE PHONE COMPANY SENT YOU THIS??!β I died laughing. He seriously didnβt get that those were my tests for like a full 60 seconds.
How Iβve been feeling //
Really, really bad. Haha. Trying not to sugar coat it but Iβve seriously never been this sick pregnant. My mornings are okay mostly but by the evening I feel like Iβve caught the flu. My days end in a dramatic crescendo of nausea, exhaustion, and staying huddled on the couch. Also, my digestion has been a problem this time around so THATβS BEEN FUN. Really believing/hoping that the next few weeks mark a big change because I am so ready to feel that second trimester magic. But even though Iβm feeling crummy, I feel weirdly grateful because I know it means that my body is doing what itβs supposed to.
Pregnancy Cravings? //
I have yet to find what Iβm looking for, but for weeks Iβve been craving a fresh squeezed lemonade icee. I donβt know where to find such a thing so that craving has gone unmet. Other than that, Iβve just had aversions to most things and I feel like Iβve been eating super unhealthy just to avoid eating gross things like salad and vegetables and meat. Even typing those words out makes me nauseous. I ate 1 piece of broccoli on Easter Sunday and I was sick the rest of the day.
Finding out Gender? //
Oh we most certainly will. Iβm very curious!
How the boys are responding //
So, so well! Iβm not sure Daxton totally comprehends it, but Everett is over the moon with excitement about βour babyβ. He has been setting aside toys in his bedroom for the baby, and heβs been touching my belly everyday and saying, βMommy, your belly is getting a lot bigger!β Heβs also very observant, and been telling me that there arenβt enough parents in our family for the number of kids we will have. Heβs right!!!
But truly, even in the midst of so many FEELINGS, I am so excited to hold another baby. We have wanted a bigger family and it took a little longer than I thought it would this time around, but I am so grateful to grow another life. I feel sensitive about sharing because I never want to hurt anyone who is going through their own journey of trying to get pregnant - it can be really emotional and seeing othersβ birth announcements can be jarring. I really get that. If that is you please know that my prayers are with you and I hope that my sharing bits and pieces can be a place of hope and encouragement.
I appreciate everyoneβs kind words and wishes on Instagram and Facebook - thank you for the love and support youβve shown our family! xx